I am making a movie.

Not just a little movie, but a feature length one. And without much money. In fact, about $20,000 of my own money- and we're shooting part of it on 35mm film, using Panavision camera equipment.

I am not supposed to be doing this. We are taught that we need a few milion dollars to make such an attempt, or at least several hundred thousand. I am doing it with $20,000. Does that mean I'm crazy? Probably. But this project is more than just a dream- it's really a test. Can it be done? Are all those words found in self-help books about making a decision and then watching providence come through for us really true, or just bullshit? Maybe with this movie I am asking the ultimate question- is there really a God?

I am making a movie.

Of course, I would not recommend anyone do this- unless you're capable of withstanding the stress. I am blessed with a life-partner who understands the tensions and triumphs involved and is always supportive- and that is a huge moral boost. But the point is that making a movie is possible, and what I am saying is, it's necessary. For too long we have been imprisoned by our own self-doubts and the garbage coming out of Hollywood. We live in our own limitations and prisons- and so we rarely venture to break those chains, even if we want to do something badly, really badly.

I have been talking about making a movie for years. I thought I needed a duffel bag full of money and a lot of friends in the movie industry. Meanwhile, I had an idea for a movie for such a long time that scenes from it woul play in my mind and drive me crazy at night. So, I had a choicemake a movie or go insane...

So I am making a movie. And you can, too. Come up with an idea that is suitable for low-budget, or as in my case, no-budget, production. Then start talking to your friends, hash the idea around a little bit, put all your resources on the table and commit to making a movie. Then see what happens. Just like I am doing right now. Let go of the outcome and just try to make a movie. Then you can write this article. Stay tuned. MM